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irons, fire. 10-01-2023

i always have so many proverbial burners running at any given moment, it's ridiculous. there are kind of a million things i wanna do. right now, i have pe,ag!!, which i'm (very) slowly chipping away at, but i also have other shit, like. this webnovel i'm kinda writing, FAGGOTROBOTBLOODCULT. it's mech / vampire yaoi and it's a blast to work on, but because it isn't comics, it feels "unproductive" to my capitalism-addled peanut brain,, sigh. i have the same problem with music and video production and all of the other things i'm interested in, too. even my first real passion, video games, have completely fallen by the wayside as of late. and i used to dream of being a games journo!! so that's kind of a big deal!! whatever. i'm too passionate about too many things to ever get shit done. it's mildly annoying. love you, bye.

the strange, cursed undeath of my shitty webcomic. 06-04-2023

hello friends! we're approaching the first anniversary of DEMON FRIEND. unfortunately, it is going on indefinite hiatus! don't worry too much, because i definitely still care about these characters and this world, but i'm going on my own little artistic journey right now, and it's one DEMON FRIEND regrettably has no place in. i've tried to make it work, y'all, but currently, it just isn't. i can't fit it into my life as of now. the good news is, if everything goes well, this isn't forever! when DF wants to, it will return, better than ever. in the meantime, watch this space (and my tumblr blog!) for more fun new projects. JPMM, signing off. love you.

blog update, 04-29-2023

this was previously a dream diary, but i will now be using it as a general blog for longer posts. it won't be updated terribly frequently.. only when i have something big to say. ttyl : ]

january 10th, 2023

hello everyone! sorry for not updating this for a bit. last night, i had a dream where i was an extra on an episode of it's always sunny in philadelphia focused on one of the main characters being transphobic. it took place primarily in an ice cream parlour. the ice cream shop was a weirdly open area, mostly empty save for a curved bar in the middle of the room. there were three people sitting there. mac and dennis (or rather, their actors, i guess), and in between them.. neil cicierega. neil cicierega, of lemon demon fame, was guest starring in an episode of iasip. i was starstruck, and yelled "neil!!!" under my breath before rushing to a small room attached to the ice cream parlour. in the room, sarah z (yes, the youtuber) and rachel bloom were sitting on a bed. i said "lemon demon...." under my breath before falling to the floor and waking up.

december 6th, 2022

im writing this in a rush, as i have to leave the house in 10 minutes. excuse the potentially sloppy prose. in my dream last night, devi mccallion (one of my favorite musicians) was a mutual friend of mine. she would show up to a lot of stuff i did with my friends, but i was always too shy to talk to her. one day, i realized she was in my house. she had squeezed herself into the space below my kitchen counter but above my trashcan. i talked to her, and eventually she said something along the lines of, "i was talking to your mother, and you know i really think you should quit drawing and pursue music." i was bizarrely moved by this statement. i started crying, and said "that means a lot coming from you.." and then i confessed to her that i was her biggest fan and she started LAUGHING AT ME. and then i woke up.

december 3rd, 2022

last night i had a dream that i fell in love with a guy. it happened over the course of a full year. i think he had moved into the house across the street from me or something like that. we met and hit it off. i quickly became close friends with him (and his girlfriend, whoops). they were some of my only friends in the neighborhood, so i would hang out with them all the time. somewhere along the way, the two of them broke up (amicably) and so most of the time it was just me and this guy. one day, after we finished picking some.. mushroom-strawberry-dandelion-things (this is a dream, after all), he invited me into his house, and we got to talking. mostly about, like, taylor swift or something. which is weird, i dont even listen to taylor swift, but dream guy and i were having an indepth conversation about which of her (entirely invented by my subconscious) albums was the best. the conversation took a turn for the romantic, and we both professed our undying love for each other. we cried (not fully sure why this happened), shared a kiss, and the dream ended. ive been having a lot of dreams about romance recently. i think maybe its because im lonely.